When my spirits are low, I can’t jump at Zumba.
I’m just made that way.
I remember distinctly when I got into a screaming, knockdown fight with one of my best friends (now several years ago but still fresh in my mind.)
Such conflicts, especially with my friends, aren’t the norm and totally rendered me off-kilter. So much so that even when I went to Zumba class, I couldn’t wiggle or shimmy, let alone jump. A weight of unseen gravity was like a ball and chain around my heart.
This went on for a couple of weeks until we had a true kiss and make-up reconnection.
And then I could jump again.
Actually, not only could I jump, I felt like Tigger.
Oh the freedom that comes from conflict resolution! And the joy of reconciliation? It’s better than winning the lottery.
I say THAT to say this:
The events of recent weeks – and it began in Orlando with the shootings at Pulse Nightclub – heightened racial tensions, the disheartening political landscape, police officers murdered in Dallas…and just this past week, Nice, France – well, I felt a sadness; a hopelessness that perhaps some of you have felt.
This crab (my astrological sign is Cancer) tends to retreat when her heart is heavy. And just like my inability to jump, I couldn’t type a blog post last week.
First one I’ve ever missed since I started.
I was going to blame it on technical difficulties, but since we’re all about being honest with each other, I couldn’t pass it off that way.
There are no pithy quotes or simple solutions to these perilous times in which we live.
On the theme of WILLINGNESS and last week’s FLEXIBILITY, I have been working at not judging and hearing all sides of an argument.
And depending on who I’m listening to, I can be persuaded.
Is anyone else out there like this?
For my mental and spiritual health, I can’t keep on focusing on what I can’t change. All I can do is what I can do. And though there’s still a good part of me that wants to hole up in my shell and ask you all to wake me up when things are better…
…that’s not gonna help anyone. Least of all, myself.
So I will plow ahead (and so will you) and know that these were recorded when a little bit of sun shone through the clouds (because not only can’t I write when I’m sad, I’m also pretty silent). And don’t want to wear makeup.
To catch you up, here’s last week’s WORD:
And here’s THIS week’s, which is remarkable:
We’ve been at this quite a while, and to get three consecutive words that say pretty much the same thing?
I know there is a message here that is taking its sweet time to penetrate my heart.
I suppose I should be OPEN to it taking as long as needed.
But one thing I’m going to work on this week is being open to receive. (Since I feel a bit unable to give, it’s not a stretch to make that my focus.)
I’m open to receiving all sorts of love this week. Feel free to send some my way!
I know, I know. The best time to GIVE is when you feel like ya got nuttin’.
So I’ll try some of that, too.
What are you hearing in these words WILLINGNESS, FLEXIBILITY, OPENNESS?
Because maybe you have an insight we ALL could use.