For our entire lives, we’ve been working on a masterpiece.
We may not call ourselves creative and a paintbrush may never have graced our hands – still, we are artists.
On my 4+ hour drive to Jacksonville to spend Thanksgiving with my friend Anita and her family, I had good company. Joining me on the open road was the audio book of Don Miguel Ruiz’s “The Voice of Knowledge.” A new friend had shared with me that Ruiz’s “The Four Agreements” deeply affected his life for good. He highly recommended the trilogy of Toltec Wisdom Books.
The word “Toltec” means “artist of the spirit.” In the Toltec tradition, every human is an artist, and the supreme art is the expression of the beauty of our spirit. To consider that we are artists (rather than mere humans), makes us creators – just like the One Who created us.
From page 47 of The Voice of Knowledge:
How do we live our life? This is our art; the art of living.
There are two kinds of artists. Those who create their story without awareness, and those recover awareness and create their story with truth and with love.
To think that I – that WE – hold the paintbrush to our lives is an awesome realization. Is there something that doesn’t fit into our vision of truth and love? Paint over it. Create something new. We have the power to do this.
We were BORN to write our own story and have everything we need to make it a work of art. Yes, people will come along who will try to impose on us what THEY think our lives should look like.
When I handed over the paintbrush to other people, I became something other than the authentic Brenda.
It has taken many years to get her back. As the song goes, “Reunited and It feels SO good!
This passage from page 68 excited my spirit so much I wanted to share it with you:
You are the only one who can change your story, and you do this by changing your relationship with yourself.
Every time you change the main character in your story, just like magic the whole story starts to change in order to adapt to the new main character.
I think of one of my favorite movies of all time, Frequency, in which the main character is able to connect to his long-deceased Father through a miraculous ham radio. At one point he mentions that “cigarettes will kill, you Dad…” as an off-handed comment.
Long story short, that suggestion led to a decision by his Father that resulted in him changing the course of his life…and his death. The script was rewritten.
I consider my decision four years ago to stop drinking. After years of wrestling with, “Do I have a problem?” I heard clearly in my spirit that if I kept it up, I would die prematurely. When tempted to sip a Cosmopolitan, I have reminded myself of that revelation to keep me from turning back.
The clarity of sobriety has graced me with so many gifts; most importantly, a clearness about what I want my life to be and who I want Brenda to be. It has afforded me a newfound ability to call a lie a lie and step away from pretense and performance. Being clear gave me the courage to walk away from those things that no longer “fit” the true me…and the health in mind, body and spirit to enjoy a new way of living.
It was the first domino in a series that led to removing Zoloft from my life, journeying to Costa Rica to get back in touch with my wounded soul and begin this journey to wholeness.
What a ripple effect!
I’m sure there will yet be many more changes to the main character of my story, but my point in writing is to encourage YOU to take that paintbrush and adjust your masterpiece accordingly.
Paint your beautiful life with broad strokes of love and truth, my friends.
And what a great word to follow up these thoughts on CREATIVITY:
What a wonderful assignment for all of us! It is NEVER too late to be who you “might have been.”
I hope you had a beautiful Thanksgiving. It’s a holiday to be celebrated year-round…and my heart is overflowing with gratitude for this life I get to live (and create!). I’m so blessed to share it with you.