My week could have been spelled WEAK – and how ironic when the WOW was STRENGTH!
Here’s the backstory: Three weeks ago I started to have seriously bloodshot, irritated eyes that were increasingly painful to blink, impossible to place contacts in, and most upsetting to my propensity for vanity, painful to apply makeup to.
If you review LAST week’s WOW taping, you can see watery eyes (in part ’cause I was a wee bit emotional, bur primarily due to my eye affliction.)
When you don’t have to show up to an office every day, the need to look good is diminished, but an impending Viola family wedding finally gave me the urgent push to go to the eye doctor.
Dr. Sinclair said, “How have you been functioning like this?”
He had no immediate answers but got me an ASAP appointment with a specialist and charged me with this assignment: “Between now and tomorrow, try and figure out what you’ve done differently that could have affected your eyes.”
I wracked my brain. No new makeup; no new creams or potions. No new food (except for my new ‘clean eating’ and geeez, what could THAT do that would be bad?)
I was getting really upset about this unknown malady, and feeling weaker by the moment.
Then, as I was getting ready for bed and took my evening low-dose aspirin, it hit me: Three weeks ago my regular doctor switched one of my medications.
I was so busy thinking about a topical cause I never considered an internal one.
(Hmmmm. That’s an interesting thought for another time!)
Thanks to Google, within minutes the rare side affects of said medication jumped out on my iPad: “Can cause severe eye distress in rare cases. If you experience blurriness, redness, and irritation – what the heck are you waiting for? Get to a doctor!” (OK, I added that last part.)
What relief to finally KNOW. And suddenly, even though my pain and circumstance had not changed, the removal of the mystery gave me STRENGTH.
Now that I know what I’m dealing with, I can beat it.
Some of you are facing physical challenges and have been for much longer than three weeks. My brief experience with a chronic, seemingly unsolvable pain was physically, mentally and spiritually distressing – so my heart truly goes out to you.
Don’t give up.
If you’ve been trying to slug it out by yourself, seek help. And if that help doesn’t help, seek some more. Seek wisdom and insight. Pray for the answer and I am believing with you that it will come.
I would prefer that joy, delight, blessings and abundance are my teachers. But when pain – whether physical or emotional – comes, for goodness sake, I want to get SOMETHING good out of it. And I expect to – because I don’t believe God, the Universe, the Source is playing cruel games with my life.
And believing that is also a source of strength.
So how do we follow this up? Settle in for the new WOW:
There is a connection between STRENGTH and SURRENDER, isn’t there?
I know I get worn out and WEAK when I try too hard to make stuff happen or freak out about what is beyond my control.
The beauty of trust is that it allows you to let go…and let God.
And therein lies great strength. “In quietness and confidence will be your strength” says Isaiah 30:15.
Love to you all!