No one said that seeking to live a big life would be easy.
As I reflected on our Word of the Week, EXPANSIVENESS, so many of the memes that supported this theme spoke to the part of my heart that dreams of a limitless life.
A life where yes is the first response, not no.
A life where dreams are nurtured instead of dashed by negativity and where love can freely radiate from me, fueled by hope and effervescent belief.
This is who I am at my core. If I try to be anything else, it constrains me like an ill-fitting jacket.
As life slips into the years where every moment counts because only God knows how many I have left, I have chosen to surround myself with people whose energy gives life instead of taking my own.
How can you live a BIG, expansive life with weights around your ankles?
Oh, you can try…and almost die trying.
This is not to say that choosing to live big is easy but that choosing to be someone that you are not is much harder.
At some point you have to look at those shackles and decide to settle for their tether or to bravely cut ties and allow yourself to fly.
I used to think that such talk was selfish. Now I realize that taking care of me is long overdue and living my life to suit other peoples’ expectations is just another performance.
I don’t want to perform at living. I want to LIVE.
Which brings me to this week’s post, and the answer to the question “What’s going on with Brenda?”
Let me add this disclaimer: My choices are my own; they are not a reflection or judgement against anyone else. I refuse to stoke bitterness and judgement; I wish only love and happiness for everyone. Please know that my life decisions should not be viewed as a rejection or devaluing of another. Rather, they reflect me finally accepting and valuing MYSELF.
I am ready to be that butterfly.